crisis

Pondering Strength.

I’m going to be fairly ambiguous here… not because I fear other people knowing things about my personal life (quite the contrary; I tend to be an open book where my personal life is concerned)… but because I’m not sure what the end result of my current situation will be, and I don’t want to have to put my foot in my mouth later, or sound silly for making something out of nothing.

That being said… I am feeling quite proud of myself lately. Not gonna lie.

I assume that most people try to be strong in life, especially when faced with adversity. I have always been one of those people who is perpetually optimistic, and reminds myself regularly that things always get better. My favorite quote since 7th grade has been, “Even the darkest hour has only 60 minutes.” (Which is the inspiration for my next tattoo, as soon as I can get my hands on a little extra cashola!) It’s kind of my life motto. And for me, I think it will always be true because I’m the type of person who will always take action. If I’m unhappy, I will take action to make myself happy again.

Also, I’m fairly rational. An example. Death, while not something I’m counting down the minutes to, isn’t necessarily terrifying to me. Do I want to die today, or even in five, ten, fifteen years? Well, no. I’d like to live a long, fulfilling life obviously. But… we all have to die. And it doesn’t really freak me out like it freaks out some people. That being said, one major difficulty in life that I have not yet had to face, is the death of a loved one. I’ve had grandparents pass away, and friends of friends… but never someone I was personally extremely close with. So maybe I’m full of it, and will break down when that day inevitably comes… but I surely hope not.

Anyway, recently I have had something to “deal” with in life… something I was not prepared for and in no way expected would happen. And I have to say that I’m proud of how I’ve handled it. I’m concerned with the situation, and have allowed myself some tears a few times… but I’m not letting it consume me. I will be fine, regardless of what happens.

Then again, I think that most people underestimate their strength when they imagine dealing with something very difficult in life. When you’re actually in the midst of a crisis, you might surprise yourself with your strength.